Monday, June 24, 2013

The good ole days..

Another post I found.. thoughts.. not complete sentences in the least! =)

When we were kids and had no worries, no bills to pay unless we didn't do the dishes..awaiting the arrival of my adopted brother, John from Korea, never ending battle of 1 girl versus 4 brothers, telling on my brothers, getting dirty..or eating dirt.. ( no that was John), playing in the awesome tree house, having a huge cinnamon roll cake for our birthdays, building forts with the bar stools and sheets, dancing to dads accordion and piano, singing duets with my momma, turn outs with Dad at Grandy's, picking up pecans, daddy "bouncing" us on the trampoline, getting a jar of dirt with a worm in it with a red bow for Christmas from Paul and Jeremy, riding my skateboard on the half pipe, watching my brothers do crazy tricks on the pipe, dressing my little brothers up as girls, going to the lake with the Neuenschwander family every year at Lake Webster, Christoval, riding horses and four wheelers in South Texas, hiking in the mountains,getting to go to private school for elementary and then all the fun things I learned that I had never been exposed too in public school in the 6th grade, piano and violin lessons, family devos, camping many places including Blanco state park, Big Bend, and Inks Lake, visits from our grandparents, Rio Frio, hot wheels, wagon rides from Grandpa, going to the beach, staying at the cool hotel in Ozona with the indoor swimming pool, VBS's, Camp Lone Star, Bandit and Shaggles, Schoeneberg Family Reunions, our momma always fixing our numerous boo-boos, playing in the hay barn at the farm, loved having my dad as my pastor, always good home cooked meals from our stay at home mom, dad being the best handy man around the house, daddy saying prayers with us every night after he tucked us in ,Paul being my other dad =, Breaking both my arms, Learning to drive in the aerostar, driving the "Big blue dog" to high school, being apart of the wonderful San Antonio St. Paul crew and still am, fun youth groups in the different churches we were apart of, ski trips, having great role models as parents, may of argued everyday with my bros but was blessed to never see my parents argue, fight, disrespect each other was the best.

I saw how a married couple should act and love each other how God loves us. Some many other great memories too many to mention. I was truly blessed growing up and want the same for my children as well.

Momma -

I found this post that I had in my drafts in my blog and didn't realized that I hadn't shared it. It will be almost 4 years since my mom went to heaven, and I am so thankful I journal -ed as much as I did. 

July 2nd 2009 -- Results from the scans come back clear and hadn't spread to the organs.. only a few more lesions on her spine and skull. Praise God! Jared and I surprised her by driving there that evening. She celebrated by going to water aerobics and even taught the class because the lady that usually teaches it wasn't there. Jared got to spend some precious time with her that next morning playing with bubbles and she was teaching him how to play with the jacks/balls. We left during the day so she could rest. We got back that night and decided to rest till the morning. Mom woke my up that next morning needing my help with breakfast. I told her I would do all that but she still wants to cook. She was so tired after just beating some eggs. I finished breakfast and she rested on the couch. That was so hard to see the beginning stages of her tiredness.

July 10th -- She had a blood transfusion along with her bone infusions.
That really perked her up a bit for awhile. She even went grocery shopping.

The next days to come she did okay tired still but hanging in their.. living for Christ daily.

July 20th -- She went to the Dr's and had some blood work done, after being exhausted that day more then ever.

July 21st -- We all got a email saying that they were almost positive that the cancer had spread to her liver.

My dear children:
Vonda has been feeling particularly tired the last 3 days - sleeping most of the time. We were hoping another blood transfusion would help.
We just got off the phone with Dr. Balzar, and following blood tests today he is fairly certain the cancer has gone to her liver. The last scan did not indicate as such, but the high enzime levels seem to clearly point in that direction.
Normally there's not much that can be done at this point; we know another transfusion is not the answer.
How much time does she have? Only the Lord knows. We're still planning on going to Colorado on Monday (27th).
We're still planning on a wedding in August, seeing all of you, dancing and living life to the fullest.
I wish I didn't have to write this email - but I know the Lord is gracious.
Liver cancer normally moves quickly, but nothing has been normal with your mom.

She doesn't necessarily want to talk right now, nor is she needing lots of company, but you can phone anytime you want this evening - I'll be home.
I can't say I'm dealing well with the lates news, but I'll be OK.

Love you all dearly,

I was training on my new job in Lake Whitney and I was blessed to not be to far from Paul and Abby's when the email came through. I didn't know about it until I got to Abby's house. My brother Paul was my amazing protector and Abby was so sweet and protective and so loving as well. I missed my boys and husband so much, but I needed to provide income, life goes on as my mom says.
I stayed busy the next day and then on Thursday morning I received this email..

Dear family and friends -
From a conversation with our doctor a few moments ago it appears that Vonda has a fairly short time to live (maybe a month or so or less - the Lord only knows). Our oncologist and primary care doctors both feel there is nothing else that can be done, well, except pray...
She's had an amazing journey as mom, grandmother, nurse, and pastor's wife. We've had an amazing marriage. It seems, as the cancer has spread to her liver, that it's quickly becoming a "firestorm" for her. She's mainly needing to sleep. We're surrounded by wonderful caring people.
She'll be on hospice care starting today. I pray there will be many good days yet in her earthly journey.
We still want to go to the mountains, be with our children and grandchildren, and attend Jeremy's wedding in August. Time will tell.
I hope to preach this coming Sunday on Ephesians 3:14-21
14 For this reason I kneel before the Father, 15 from whom his whole family in heaven and on earth derives its name. 16 I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being, 17 so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, 18 may have power, together with all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, 19 and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. 20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, 21 to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen.

Those are amazing verses! And even more meaningful following today's news. Right now I'm particularly glad Vonda and I have been surrounded by the " of Christ".

In Christ,

Dad, Grandpa, Papa,
Pastor Boerger

I honestly hyper ventilated at first and had someone get my boss. I calmed down after alittle bit with the help of my sweet boss. I tired to keep working but decided to go home to be with my family that I had been separate from. I talked to a few people on the way home to includes my wonderful aunts Janean and Kathy. I did listen to alot of praise music and praised God through the storm.

I spent some needed time with my family ... that night. My hubby just loved on me and was the sweetest ever. I loved seeing my boys and we told Jared that night.
He tried to understand and I believe with my whole heart that Jared knew Jesus will take care of her, love her and help her be whole again. He is such a strong little boy with a big heart.

We left the next morning to go see mom. That day was Friday July 24th. She wasn't doing too good that day but very happy to see us. Gabe got to sit with her and hold her hand and be so sweet to her. I told Jared to go give her big hugs and kisses but be very gentle.. and he looked at me all serious and said, "But she will get me sick." I laughed so hard. We explained to him that Nana isn't contagious. I got a sweet picture of mom holding Jared right after that moment.

I have been so blessed to have so many wonderful time and moments with my mom.
I laid with her in the camper and let her know that I will make her proud, her grandsons will grow up to be good kids, Gabriel will take good care of me, and I will do always be there for daddy through and through... She asked me if we were going to try for a girl in the future.. and I assured her when we do it will be in the future.. She said with a laugh, you are probably pregnant right now, Ms. Fertile.. ha momma I am not.
She assured me that Daddy will be okay and he is so much stronger then he thinks he is.. and he draws his strength from the Lord. She was needing to go to sleep and she then told me nicely.. "Get out and go forth"!! I just love it!

I enjoyed waiting on her hand and foot. She will tell me to get her just one more ice cube.. I laughed at her and she said.. I am serious.. I need one more..

One of the most special moments I will never forget was when a few of my brothers were talking to her on the couch on Saturday afternoon and it seemed to of really hit her and we all then ( the original 7) all gathered around her. She had many tears and we all cried together some. She looked at all of us and again said Dad will be okay..and I know you will take care of him.. I am not all really sure what she said. Dena, Melisa and Gabe got the kids with an unspoken response knowing we needed our time as just the 7 of us and took the kids to the other room. Of course AJ tried to run back but Melisa caught him in time.

The next day was the wedding...

Lola came to visit.

This is from a while back but wanted to share. We love when she comes and we have so much fun with Grandma.

Monday, April 8, 2013

Happy Birthday Jared!

Happy 8th Birthday to my big boy, Jared. We are so thankful for Jared. My life was so different before I had you, and having you change my whole life for the best and saved my life as well! Jared is so smart, reading really well, spelling BIG words, sassy at times, loves Jesus, loves his friends, can build a serious lego ship, loves being with family, and can make you laugh till your side hurts. He can be stubborn, but has the biggest heart for people! Nana is looking down on you today and I know she is so proud! 

Monday, April 1, 2013

Happy Homemaker Monday

Thank you Sandra at for hosting.

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High of 82 today. We didn't get to do our Easter Egg Hunt yesterday due to me having to work so we will wait till it is cool to have one tonight.

Right now I am....
I just got home from a dental cleaning, no fun but needed! I am enjoying my day off today!

I have many things I need to be doing but relaxing is one of them right now.

On my reading pile....
I just finished Safe Haven by Nicolas Sparks. I can't wait to see the movie.

On my TV.....
Catching up on Army Wives and Revenge

On the menu for this week....
well not sure but my hubby does most the cooking now with me working full time, so I never know till dinner time, but trust me it is always good..

On my to do list....
Many things..thankfully I am done with the bills and scheduling dr. appts this morning
Son's soccer practice tonight
I am going to help make homemade suckers for our kids camp fundraisers. 

In the craft basket....
I have tried to start a few or finish a few blankets but my wrist still bother me for now so I will wait. =(

Looking forward to this week....
Getting to go to Sam's for a big shopping trip in the next big town, I know you are jealous. 
I also finally found a eye doctor that takes my vision insurance. I have needed new glasses for over a year now.

Looking around the house....
Big time cleaning and putting away of things is needed

From the camera....

It was my son's 6th Birthday this past week. It was also their Easter party day. I added some cupcakes to all the sugar. This is my silly husband with crafts that my son made in his speech therapy time.

On my prayer list.....
My big brother needs a lot of prayer. Pray that he continues to choose life. 
Prayer for finances and sticking to our small budget. I am grateful to being able to pay bills!
Prayers that my husband's blood will be therapeutic soon. It has been on cuminden  for over 3 months now.

Bible verse, Devotional....
Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you - James 4:8
He is not here, He is Risen!